place for @ ing friends that maybe i will use

@ashley

i love reading your ranked list of dating. i’m know of inspired to make my own.

@mayadelphia

jaw is agape at what’s indie rock and what’s tact. you have got to get out of there.

@howtotellifgay

i don’t know if ill have valuable insight, but im so happy to follow along on your journey.

i guess as someone who feels pretty strongly that im bisexual: i feel like i Know i like men and i Know i like women. the attractions can feel really different though, and there is definitely a lot of gender baggage that emerges when dating different genders. i do feel like sexuality often feels really connected to personal gender expression for me.

i’ve had various times where i questioned whether i was fully a lesbian or fully straight. my attraction to women is like soooo erotic and, sorry if this is TMI, but i get so much hornier for them based on appearance alone. but with men, i’ve noticed i tend to develop deep romantic feelings more commonly (probably since my type in women is like hyper feminine uptight and domineering chicks and oftentimes it’s hard to meet gay women of that ilk…). so there have been a lot of times where i’ve been like, i get hornier for women! me liking men must be comphet! and then i go into an “am i gay” spiral.

but then ill be like, i always fall for men romantically and it’s been so long since ive had feelings for a woman. i must be secretly straight and a fake bisexual! and then ill spiral about that.

i’ve been trying to learn to live with the harmony of accepting i like men and women in different ways and i can just roll with that. this is just a glimpse into my bisexual journey and some ways i have struggled with my own sexuality, but i do feel pretty confident im probably bisexual. i hope maybe any of this sharing of my own experience helps with parsing your own relationship to determining whether or not you might be bi.

and as other replies said, it definitely feels important to express yourself in ways that make you feel joyful, so reading your post i felt concerned hearing you didn’t feel like you could do that in your current relationship. regardless of your sexuality, i hope you feel free to present as queerly as you want and have someone accept that about you. 🩷

@lezlibrary

for what it’s worth, lately ive been thinking of you a good deal and how im grateful you’ve become a very special friend to me. but i often feel similarly and understand.

@lizardking love u and it means a good deal.

@lizardking i completely relate to the scary lack of shield feeling but i and many other friends are always here to support u … love u

am i making myself ugly or doing feminism is the age old question. i think it’s often both. i think on a daily basis about making myself sick with GLP-1s to be more beautiful but im like wow that is so not feminist so i dont do it.

@ashley omg which friend?? and THANK YOU it’s so annoying bc surely you know im texting u all the time for horny reasons…

@ashley i loved reading about your trip to SF. how are you traveling so much omg

@mayadelphia i’m so happy you’re on flounder now <3

@lizardking @lezlibrary of courseeee

@lizardking love you liz <3 porch hang tmr ?

@lizardking women can do anythinggg

@lizardking hey ya is so deep tho i understand

@lezlibrary need to order a sazerac and write at the bar… also yeah being an adult can be boring but it’s bleakly comical how much the worst day of adulthood clears being a kid any day for me

@ashley not the dog birthday party 😭

@lizardking i’m glad to be here i loooove flounder

@bigassbug PLEASE take the donut i promise u no one will notice

@applesauce @lezlibrary yes please, i can genuinely do some research and lyk about ghost hunting spots lol. i just emailed eastern state to ask if they might let me go after hours and record

@lezlibrary that’s so awesome wtf. wanna watch some ghost hunters soon? /we should film our own ghost hunting escapade

@lezlibrary thank you and also love you. also i read ur most recent update as well and im going thru something similar…love is hard

@ashley hiiiii thanks for the shoutout